well, I knew it wasn’t going to work out.. I knew I had my hopes up for nothing.. but, on some level, it didn’t surprise me.. it definitely disappointed me, but it didn’t surprise me.. I’m constantly at odds with my mental illness and it’s been getting the better of me lately.. I feel defeated sometimes; I often don’t know why I even try to do anything
beyond survive.. I still have quite a bit to work through and it’s an uphill battle all the time.. I’m tired, just so very tired.. I try to think positively and to make myself feel better, but it doesn’t work that way.. nothing comes easy….
posted from Sara’s phone